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[22 Jul 2009|05:42pm] |
It's been over six months since i last posted to you dearest live journal. And it might've been for the best, but seeing as how i haven't bothered to write down my thoughts in any other sort of outlet it probably didn't help me.
As i get older the painful things in life keep piling on and it seems that each year gets harder. But then I stop and ask if the years are getting harder or am I just becoming more aware?
Despite that last bit, I have got to say that this has been the best school year of my life. I don't think i've ever learned so much about acting, about people, about myself in less than one year. Circle is definitely a life changing program. (apologies for the advertisement undertone). A lot has changed even since I last posted here. I'm a permanently living in my apartment on the upper east side although i do occasionally return to long island for a weekend. I'm lucky to be only a train ride away from home. My relationship of three years has come to an end. Further comments are reserved for my private journal. I'm hosting at a restaurant and not enjoying it. Something about rolling over to take it from fat upper east siders doesn't sit right with me. I've become very fake while working which I feel reverses everything that I've learned and changed through out this first year. If I was honest and spoke my mind, became true to how i felt while working then I would have been fired months ago. Should I just find another job at a place that doesn't care if you're rude to costumers? Or maybe it's something inside me that feels i HAVE to do everything i can to make a costumer happy even though they don't deserve it? Maybe if I just cared less about people, strangers who don't care one bit about me.
In other news, Gay ex-boyfriend numero uno Nick Rini moved into to my old roomates room (or cubby if you will). Yes, ladies and gentleman, Will & Grace has come to life. Although it may soon die if Nick's dog, lady, doesn't stop barking at every little sound which is what she's doing at the moment.
That's all I have for now. Ciao.
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[31 Dec 2008|11:56am] |
Christmas was interesting. For as long as I can remember, Christmas was spent at my Aunt Maryanne's spacious, well decorated house with my Aunt Joanne (what's up with the anne's? My mom was clearly suppose to be special and different) Grandpa, my cousin Brenda and her son, and then some of Maryanne's inlaws. But this year everything was different. Aunt Joanne's in laws (well not you're typical idea of inlaws, her husbands children from another marriage who are a little younger than Maryanne) wanted to do christmas day instead of their usual christmas eve which meant that my aunt joanne and brenda(her daughter) along with Brenda's son, her new husband Jon, and her newborn Julia (the world's cutest baby) would not be spending christmas with us. That upset all of us and somehow we decided to spend Christmas at Joanne's. The smaller, smellier house. Ya got all that?
Luckily for me, I got a cannon rebel digital slr camera so I spent most of the time taking pictures of baby Julia or of my grandpa sleeping. But on top of all this, I woke up with a terrible cold and felt like poo for most of the day. I tried taking a nap in the guest bedroom where all the coats were but the kids kept running in and out during a game of hide and seek and my Aunt Joanne's family were really loud and obnoxious every time they wanted to get something from the coat room.
But everything surrounding Christmas was great, as it always is. I went caroling with all my friends on the saturday it wouldn't stop snowing. My nose was frost bitten, but my heart was warm just from walking around and singing with them. I really miss singing coral music, especially with them. We went around to a couple of houses and got candy canes from one little girl. Then we headed to Em-trus house because her family was having a christmas party and she couldn't join us. We went in and sang a few songs. Meanwhile her family was passing around a bowl collecting money and as we left no one wanted to take it. So I broke the tension and took the money with the intention of donating it.
Saw slumdog millionaire. It was great and I suggest everyone see it.
Our group of friends was asked to put on a cabaret for a small theatre called the black box theatre. It's this saturday, the 3rd, at 8 o'clock and it should be really good. It will be mostly broadway stuff but I do believe jeff will be doing some of his kick ass poetry (no really, it kicks ass). Anyway, the theatre is located in the Planet party place in the northport shopping center off of jericho turnpike. Tickets are $12 and if you show your student ID you get free ramen noodles.
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[22 Dec 2008|11:12am] |
saw this on dawn's journal and was hoping that if I do this then I will be inspired to actually write something in my journal.
Six Things I was Doing 10 Years Ago
1. Adjusting to my house on first avenue
2. Playing as much Pokemon as I could
3. Dancing my little 9-year-old feet off
4. Trying hang out with the cool kids in Mr. Gazzo's class
5. Playing Dorothy in the 4th grade's production of "Over the rainbow!"
6. Being a kid and enjoying life
Six Things on My To Do List Today:
1. Wrap Presents.
2. Figure out whether or not I'm going to Jersey tomorrow to organize my teacher's computer for a fee.
3. Go tanning.
4. Work on my scene for alan's class and look up words and phrases in the scene that I don't know or get.
5. Stretch and work out in my attempt to keep in shape over break.
6. Spend as much time with peter as I can.
Six Snacks I Enjoy:
1. Sesame sticks.
2. Pita chips.
3. String cheese
4. Chocolate chocolate chip pumpkin muffins
5. Toasted sourdough bread with vegan butter
6. nestle tollhouse chocolate chips
Six Things I Would Do If I Were a Millionaire, in no particular order:
1. Pay off my loans.
2. Pay off my credit cards.
3. Buy my mom a place.
4. Get a really nice apartment either in the village or on the upper eastside in the 60's.
5. Adopt a dog
6. Buy everything i want from urban outfitters, free people, and american apparel.
Six Places I Have Lived:
1. Brooklyn
2. East Bruce Lane, Kings Park NY
2. Just plain Bruce Lane, Kings Park NY
3. First Ave, Kings Park NY
4. Upper Dock Rd, Kings Park NY
5. Upper East Side, New York NY
6. To be continued
Six Jobs I Have Had:
1. Choreographer
2. Slave to CAP
3. Coffee Beanery
4. Camp Counselor (i guess that can go under the slave part)
5. Starbucks
6. To be continued
So my mom picked my up saturday and brought me home to a winter wonderland. It was so nice to come home. This semester has gone by so quickly but it's been a lot. I came home and just crashed, couldn't move, couldn't wake. I had no energy for the rest of the day. But it's so nice to be home and away from the drama that's been making me break out like crazy.
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[27 Nov 2008|01:18pm] |
Happy Turkey Day everyone!!!
i thought you should all know that i typed happy birthday first.
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[23 Nov 2008|05:26pm] |
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my live journal has been suffering from neglect. Every time i go to check it or update it my internet craps out or i just get distracted. But I really want to write more stuff here about how I'm doing, how I'm feeling, etc. Start being more "private in public as we say at school. So more is to come. Hopefully.
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[21 Sep 2008|10:22pm] |
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i so lucky to have everything in reach. school, food, bed bath and beyond, clothing, friends, boyfriend, mom. it's great that i can spend weekend time with peter and mom whenever i want to. i love them both so much.
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[14 Sep 2008|11:22am] |
I'm all moved in! I love it. Moving in was entertaining. Especially getting a mattress up on a loft. Luckily we bought a rolled up foam mattress.
My roomates are cute. Two of them are completely moved in, the other one is staying with her mom and uncle and she's moving in today.
I'm sitting in a starbucks right now because we don't have internet yet and stealing wi-fi hasn't worked out yet. womp womp.
I feel a little lucky. Finally. There's four loft beds in our apartment so everyone has their own separate sleeping space. There's a starbucks on the corner, a subway three blocks away and leaves me off right by my school, a huge bed bath and beyond around the corner, and lots of diners. This is a pretty sweet deal.
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[12 Sep 2008|12:37am] |
Eve Ensler, the American playwright, performer, feminist and activist best known for writing "The Vagina Monologues" and founding V-Day, the global movement to end violence against women and girls, wrote the following about Sarah Palin.
Drill, Drill, Drill
I am having Sarah Palin nightmares. I dreamt last night that she was a member of a club where they rode snowmobiles and wore the claws of drowned and starved polar bears around their necks. I have a particular thing for Polar Bears. Maybe it's their snowy whiteness or their bigness or the fact that they live in the arctic or that I have never seen one in person or touched one. Maybe it is the fact that they live so comfortably on ice. Whatever it is, I need the polar bears.
I don't like raging at women. I am a Feminist and have spent my life trying to build community, help empower women and stop violence against them. It is hard to write about Sarah Palin. This is why the Sarah Palin choice was all the more insidious and cynical. The people who made this choice count on the goodness and solidarity of Feminists.
But everything Sarah Palin believes in and practices is antithetical to Feminism which for me is part of one story -- connected to saving the earth, ending racism, empowering women, giving young girls options, opening our minds, deepening tolerance, and ending violence and war.
I believe that the McCain/Palin ticket is one of the most dangerous choices of my lifetime, and should this country chose those candidates the fall-out may be so great, the destruction so vast in so many areas that America may never recover. But what is equally disturbing is the impact that duo would have on the rest of the world. Unfortunately, this is not a joke. In my lifetime I have seen the clownish, the inept, the bizarre be elected to the presidency with regularity.
Sarah Palin does not believe in evolution. I take this as a metaphor. In her world and the world of Fundamentalists nothing changes or gets better or evolves. She does not believe in global warming. The melting of the arctic, the storms that are destroying our cities, the pollution and rise of cancers, are all part of God's plan. She is fighting to take the polar bears off the endangered species list. The earth, in Palin's view, is here to be taken and plundered. The wolves and the bears are here to be shot and plundered. The oil is here to be taken and plundered. Iraq is here to be taken and plundered. As she said herself of the Iraqi war, "It was a task from God."
Sarah Palin does not believe in abortion. She does not believe women who are raped and incested and ripped open against their will should have a right to determine whether they have their rapist's baby or not.
She obviously does not believe in sex education or birth control. I imagine her daughter was practicing abstinence and we know how many babies that makes.
Sarah Palin does not much believe in thinking. From what I gather she has tried to ban books from the library, has a tendency to dispense with people who think independently. She cannot tolerate an environment of ambiguity and difference. This is a woman who could and might very well be the next president of the United States . She would govern one of the most diverse populations on the earth.
Sarah believes in guns. She has her own custom Austrian hunting rifle. She has been known to kill 40 caribou at a clip. She has shot hundreds of wolves from the air.
Sarah believes in God. That is of course her right, her private right. But when God and Guns come together in the public sector, when war is declared in God's name, when the rights of women are denied in his name, that is the end of separation of church and state and the undoing of everything America has ever tried to be.
I write to my sisters. I write because I believe we hold this election in our hands. This vote is a vote that will determine the future not just of the U.S. , but of the planet. It will determine whether we create policies to save the earth or make it forever uninhabitable for humans. It will determine whether we move towards dialogue and diplomacy in the world or whether we escalate violence through invasion, undermining and attack. It will determine whether we go for oil, strip mining, coal burning or invest our money in alternatives that will free us from dependency and destruction. It will determine if money gets spent on education and healthcare or whether we build more and more methods of killing. It will determine whether America is a free open tolerant society or a closed place of fear, fundamentalism and aggression.
If the Polar Bears don't move you to go and do everything in your power to get Obama elected then consider the chant that filled the hall after Palin spoke at the RNC, "Drill Drill Drill." I think of teeth when I think of drills. I think of rape. I think of destruction. I think of domination. I think of military exercises that force mindless repetition, emptying the brain of analysis, doubt, ambiguity or dissent. I think of pain.
Do we want a future of drilling? More holes in the ozone, in the floor of the sea, more holes in our thinking, in the trust between nations and peoples, more holes in the fabric of this precious thing we call life?
Eve Ensler
September 5, 2008
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[11 Sep 2008|11:40pm] |
I've got an apartment. In the city. And it's soooo nice.
I start classes on monday. I don't know how to feel yet.
Its funny how i just had to move, what, four months ago and as I'm finally settled and adjusted and I call this place home, I have to move again. But it's okay because i'm near people i know and I'm closer to peter now.
He's so strong. I love him so much. <3
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[09 Jun 2008|11:19pm] |
my lj's being really wonky lately.
What's new? I moved. My mother and I are no longer in chez murphy. It was a hard process but I love our apartment. It's one of two that are side by side in a 100+ year old house. New bathroom, new kitchen, stained glass window panes on the doors, and walking distance to the bluff, my favorite place ever. Oh, there's also an outhouse and the KP psych center is right in the backyard. I really like it here. However I hate driving home alone at night because there are very to no street lights on all roads leading to mine. Creeps me out.
Working at sbux has been fun. I've been having troubles with my hourse and availability but it's all worked out now.
I'm Lucy in Charlie Brown at CAP. The cast consists of Dorothy (deej) Loechel, Peter Mastrocinque, Jared Rosenberg, Jeremy Hudson, and Ronnie Green. It's fun and it will be great. Right now there's only camp shows but we do have the eisenhower park show which is FREE so everyone should be there!
Nothing else i can really think of right now. Night.
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[05 May 2008|10:24pm] |
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so I finished cuckoo's nest at smithtown. Lot of fun. The cast was just the nicest bunch. and the funniest. If you haven't seen it yet, the show doesn't close till May 18th and I highly suggest that you see it. It's great.
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[26 Apr 2008|10:50am] |
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So I'll be doing four shows of One Flew Over the Cuckoo's Nest at Smithown Performing Arts Center as Sandra. The Dates are tonight April 26th @ 8, May 2nd and 3rd @ 8 (both profanity free shows, not as much fun) and May 4th @ 2. The show is really good so you should see it if you get a chance.
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[16 Apr 2008|10:02pm] |
i really enjoy working at starbucks. the people at our store are great (minus a few super annoying ones). come visit me sometime, it's the one on jericho turnpike in commack across from mayfair shopping center.
what else is new...... i have my auditions for AMDA and Cirlce in the Square coming up soon. Bare closed. It got a good review from steve parks, well it was a basic book report but that's a good thing. Went on as Ivy for one show and that went well. You can check out the youtube vids here http://www.youtube.com/user/Nance124. I kinda miss bare now. I know i said some things about it before but i regret saying. It's one of those shows you don't think you'll miss until it's over. The cast was a ton of fun backstage.
So that's all for now. I'm gonna get to bed early since i have to be up at 4 in the morning to open. Peace.
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[31 Mar 2008|11:42am] |
I been itching to take pictures lately.
Thank you to everyone who came on saturday and everyone who was super awesome and helped out before the show!
and thanks risa for beating the crap outta me!
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[24 Mar 2008|07:27pm] |
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if you haven't seen Bare: a pop opera yet then this saturday (March 29th) would be a great time to see it becuase I will be going on as IVY!!! So, come see it please!!!
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